i lost my baby daughter at 37 weeks pregnant,, it was seven years ago, but still sticks in my mind like it happened yesterday..i wasnt feeling very good a couple of days before it happened, and the scan id a week before didnt show anything was wrong, i woke up that day to see with horror, blood on my duvet,, one of my legs was twice bigger than the other, my face swollen and puffy and a dull ache in my back, my boyfriend was at work ,so foned him to come home straight home, took my other two kids keeley then nearly 11,, and kieron 2 to my mums,, then me and my partner dashed straight to hospital, i did a urine sample for the nurse, and she put me on a moniter , the nurse then said my babys heartbeat was starting to fade , and she dashed out brought another doc and quickly took me to have an ultrasound scan...the doctor turned to us several moments later and said im very sorry your baby has died,, my partner and i just broke down sobbing we couldnt take it in both just holding each other and sobbing..i was then taken to a room where i was hooked up to drips etc,,my blood pressure was sky high , i couldnt even talk properly,, after 13 hours in labour (she was breach as well) ,i gave birth naturally,, my other two kids were born by caesarian section, i named her kasey she weighed 3lb 10oz,, and looked like a little doll ..the vicar came in to bless her and she was by my bedside two days in a moses basket , before i let them take her to the hospital chapel of rest..the day after i kissed her goodbye in shock and through blurred tears, she was taken away to sheffield for a post mortem which i asked for....the cause of her death was a blood clot behind the placenta, which the doctors didnt detect on the scan the week before,, the nurses were lovely and did me several large pictures of kasey dressed and surrounded by lovely flowers,, and made me a lovely book with a lock of her,, handprints footprints photos etc,,and the hospital paid for the full burial and lovely little headstone.. time does heal eventually and not a day goes by when i think of her, nearly a year later i had another child kurt born 8 weeks early by ceasarian weighing nearly 4lb he spent 2 weeks in special care before he came home,, we all talk about her , and they love taking flowers to the church yard for her,, saying goodnight godbless to her...just thought id share my story ..thanx marie
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