My name is Susan.  I first fell pregnant at aged 20.  On my 21st Birthday at 10 weeks pregnant i suffered a miscarriage.  I thought my life was over.  I saw no light at the end of the tunnel.  I looked out the hospital window at the new mothers bringing home their babies and wondered would that ever be me!

I fell pregnant again 6 months later but again i miscarried.  This time i was 9 weeks pregnant.  Devastated doesn't come close to how i felt. 

8 months later i was pregnant again.  This time i reached 11 weeks.  Then came the pains that i had come to know so well.  Yes, I miscarried again.  I tried to put on a brave face but it was impossible.  I couldn't look at a baby without breaking down.  i resigned myself to being childless.

Then at aged 23 i fell pregnant once more.  I reached 10 weeks and waited for the pains.  Then 11 weeks, then 12 weeks.  When i was 14 weeks pregnant i began to have some hope.  I wrote a diary of my pregnancy day by day.  I didnt buy any baby clothes or accessories.  I was afraid to look to the future.

At 9 months and 2 weeks i gave birth to a beautiful, healthy baby boy weighing 7lb 1oz.  He was perfect.

Two years later i gave birth to a beautiful healthy baby girl weighing 6lb 9ozs.

Then another two years later i fell pregnant again.  i reached 9 weeks and suffered yet another miscarriage.  That made four in total. 

I longed for my four babies that i had lost, but i thanked God for my two beautiful children who had survived.

Now, i am 36 years old and the mother of 4 beautiful healthy children.  i went on to have another two baby girls.

My children are aged 13, 10, 3 and 13 months.